Of course, with that kind of distance nothing was going to continue, much to the dismay of both of us. Plus, some weird things happend that weekend and he ended up being a total jerk. So i left and it was...kinda weird.
We've kept in touch - mostly via IM. Throughout the years we talked about what happened (he just kinda freaked; he really, really liked me and just didn't know how to handle things). I've forgiven him; we've moved on. Since then he's told me about the variety of girlfriends he's had, and I of the men in my life. It's a nice friendship, and the undertone of our still-exsistant crush on each other have always been there. So of course I told him about Rizzo and I breaking up and he lent a sympathetic ear. Aroung the same time in his blog, he commented that now that he's done with his degree (his second Masters in Something), he want to go take a vacation somewhere. He mentioned a few states he's got friends in. I commented and said "you should come to Maine!"
He IMed me the next day: how long can you deal with me?
I said 4 days. I think 3 is too short for coming from across the country (he's in Eugene, OR now) and 5 is a little too long for someone you haven't seen in 7 years. He agreed.
He called me a week later and told me he bought the tickets.
He arrives tomorrow.
I'm excited and nervous at the same time. What if we see each other and decide "nah." What if we never leave the house (he does want to see SOME of Maine...)? We talked about it and decided that we'd play it by ear - no expectations from either of us, and either one of us can say "thanks, but no thanks" (although I'd be very surprised if that happened).
I gotta say, him coming to visit is a saving grace for me. It's getting my mind off of Rizzo (still working through the grief) and keeping me busy cleaning my apartment (which it desperatly needs after last nights party).
So. I won't be posting much the next few days - not like you'll miss me or anything. And I'll give a full report when I return to reality.
enjoy your weekend!
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